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'Moments'
collection
With this collection, I wanted to capture moments that have great emotional power for me.
I struggle with anxiety and depression a lot and while I’m in a low mood I noticed that it just completely takes over me. When I spiral, I start thinking (delusionally) that all my life is awful, and I have never been happy. Not even for a moment. This is the reason why I created this collection. To prove to myself that I have had moments that I felt happy and full of love.
My process of creating paintings doesn’t end when the painting is finished. After I am done creating, I hang the paintings in my home. I want to see how the paintings live. What emotions and atmosphere does the painting create when I share a space with it every day? Does it make me feel light and happy? Or dark and heavy? Or something in between?
I hung all these paintings in my home to keep reminding me of these moments when I felt grateful to be alive, excited, or just full of emotions. Feeling strong emotions is my superpower and when I get motivated, I feel very powerful. When I find a cause, I am very passionate about it makes me feel unstoppable. I want to hold on to those feelings. So when the low mood comes I can know for sure that it will go away soon and I will start feeling good emotions again.
Friends
The painting captures the moment of a close friend's meeting. The moment when I haven’t seen my best friends in ages, and we all sit down with our drinks and start talking. You all have so much to say the conversation is flowing uncontrollably fast. I slowly lean back in my chair and try to take in how perfect this moment is. Being around my friends who are all so smart, beautiful, and strong yet so different. My heart feels so full and warm, and I am very excited to share all my thoughts with my friends. While I talk, I can just feel the electricity flowing through my whole body. I wish this could never end. For once I feel complete and not lonely. I’m not sure when we will all meet like this again as we all live thousands of miles from each other now. I’m trying to savour the moment and pin this memory in my brain so I can remember it for a long time.
The image shows a cup with three straws sticking out of it. This represents friendship. My friends and I are all different like the straws, but all stuck in the same cup (world). One might be floating right now, one might be falling a bit and going through things. Different people with different journeys in different colours but all looking through the same café’s window at the same blue sky. The sky is a representation of the bright future. The heart-shaped sunglasses on the table show how much love is around you at that moment. As when you put the sunglasses on all you can see is love.
Acrylic painting 50cmx60cm
The image shows a cup with three straws sticking out of it. This represents friendship. My friends and I are all different like the straws, but all stuck in the same cup (world). One might be floating right now, one might be falling a bit and going through things. Different people with different journeys in different colours but all looking through the same café’s window at the same blue sky. The sky is a representation of the bright future. The heart-shaped sunglasses on the table show how much love is around you at that moment. As when you put the sunglasses on all you can see is love.
Acrylic painting 50cmx60cm
Bubble gum bubble
This painting captures the moment when I go to the grocery store and see a new colourful flavour of bubble gum. I put it in your cart and smirk. After leaving the store I quickly unwrap the gum and chuck it in my mouth. I stand there chewing and start blowing bubbles. I realize I am still good at it. I feel connected to my inner child. My inner child giggles. I blush.
The image shows a person blowing a bubble gum bubble. Their eyes are looking up and their cheeks are blushing in the shape of flowers. Their face is non-realistic but full of colours and shapes. Bringing childish playfulness to the whole image.
Acrylic painting 50cmx60cm
The image shows a person blowing a bubble gum bubble. Their eyes are looking up and their cheeks are blushing in the shape of flowers. Their face is non-realistic but full of colours and shapes. Bringing childish playfulness to the whole image.
Acrylic painting 50cmx60cm
In a rush
This painting captures the moment I leave in a rush. The complex emotions of running all day trying to catch up with my to-do list. I hate being late, my stomach is already in knots. My mind is buzzing with all the tasks that must be done. I’m just trying to keep it all in and don’t forget all the small details. Stuff keeps falling out of my hands and of course, everyone in my way is being stupidly slow. Things keep going wrong: wrong turn, wrong name, scattered thoughts, spelling mistakes. I feel completely taken over by anxiety. I look at the time and I see I am running late. I think to myself “Of course I will be late, why did I think I could make it in time”. The traffic was horrible so now I’m distracted and run home, grab your jacket, and dart through the door. I am finally on my way when I realize I left the keys I needed at home… I stop… My mind still spinning from thoughts filled with anxiety. I take a deep breath… Turn around and climb back the stairs to my place.
The image shows the apartment that I left behind. The poster is falling off the wall, the hanger is still up from when I took my jacket. Everything looks unbalanced and messy like a big burst of wind has just rearranged everything around. That’s exactly how I feel in the moment. I am the burst of wind and I feel dizzy because all my thoughts are spinning faster and faster in my head.
Acrylic painting 50cmx60cm
The image shows the apartment that I left behind. The poster is falling off the wall, the hanger is still up from when I took my jacket. Everything looks unbalanced and messy like a big burst of wind has just rearranged everything around. That’s exactly how I feel in the moment. I am the burst of wind and I feel dizzy because all my thoughts are spinning faster and faster in my head.
Acrylic painting 50cmx60cm
Celebration
The painting captures the moment of celebration. The moment of almost summertime weather stroking my face. I am excited as I am graduating high school. I decided to put on my star glasses because that day I felt like a star. I feel motivated and looking forward to whatever life holds for me. I just became a young adult, and everything feels new and exciting. My classmates and I let go of celebration balloons that have our wishes written on them. We all watch them being blown away by the wind. All the different paths and opportunities I can take are represented by the different balloons. I start to feel butterflies in my stomach. I have no idea what the future holds for me.
The image shows a person with statement star glasses on, with an open mouth from excitement. Different blue- and yellow-coloured balloons are floating around the person.
Acrylic painting 50cmx60cm
The image shows a person with statement star glasses on, with an open mouth from excitement. Different blue- and yellow-coloured balloons are floating around the person.
Acrylic painting 50cmx60cm
Mirror reflection
This painting captures the moment of noticing something small. While I am stuck in a routine, doing things the same way for a while. Driving at the same time, the same route almost on autopilot. But then… I notice a hot air balloon behind me while checking myself in the mirror. I suddenly stop and just stare at the balloon slowly floating past my window. It brings me out of autopilot mode and I notice a smile on my face. The balloon slowly but confidently floats away and I give it a little wave. This small moment fills up my room and I feel calm and grateful for a small moment like that. I feel glad to be alive to see the beauty around you.
Acrylic painting 50cmx60cm
Acrylic painting 50cmx60cm
Open
This painting captures the moment I open myself up to someone. The moment I feel safe enough again to carefully unlock and slightly push open the door to show my true self. I notice the other person doing the same. This makes me tingle as I am gaining a new friendship. I notice letting myself slowly flow in the conversation.
The image shows two buildings. They are both different in colours and patterns. They represent two people interacting with each other. Opening up (their doors) and slowly showing their inside (flowing liquid). Emotions, stories and connections are slowly flowing out like water.
Acrylic painting 50cmx60cm
The image shows two buildings. They are both different in colours and patterns. They represent two people interacting with each other. Opening up (their doors) and slowly showing their inside (flowing liquid). Emotions, stories and connections are slowly flowing out like water.
Acrylic painting 50cmx60cm
'Personal'
collection
In control
Acrylic painting 50cmx60cm
Psychotherapy
I have been suffering from chronic migraines since I was 18. None of the doctors still can’t find out why. It has been a struggle finding anything helpful to relief my pain. I started going to psychotherapy. The journey was intense. I understood how many bad habits I have in my through process. This painting represents what the start of my journey in psychotherapy looked like.
The interior in the painting represents my mind state, it had this huge scary flower bush. The bush represents me growing my bad habits. After starting therapy, I started growing a good habit bush and took care of it. I didn’t even realise how my mind has been overworked and I lived in the negative constantly. The water shows how any minute my emotional state can collapse and overflow. Most of the time that collapse becomes a migraine. I become defeated and used to get mad at myself for having migraines. It completely controls my life. Now, I still struggle with my migraines a lot, but I am learning and gathering different methods of calming myself and staying resilient. The painting is a reminder to keep going and shows how much I have overcome.
Acrylic painting 50cmx60cm
The interior in the painting represents my mind state, it had this huge scary flower bush. The bush represents me growing my bad habits. After starting therapy, I started growing a good habit bush and took care of it. I didn’t even realise how my mind has been overworked and I lived in the negative constantly. The water shows how any minute my emotional state can collapse and overflow. Most of the time that collapse becomes a migraine. I become defeated and used to get mad at myself for having migraines. It completely controls my life. Now, I still struggle with my migraines a lot, but I am learning and gathering different methods of calming myself and staying resilient. The painting is a reminder to keep going and shows how much I have overcome.
Acrylic painting 50cmx60cm
Communicating cultural identities
This painting was a part of my dissertation assessment. The topic I wrote about was "What roles do textiles play in communicating cultural identities?"
I decided to try and see what connects me and my family and relatives. While doing this I realised that the piece connecting us all was my grandma. Grandma in my family takes the leader role, she is the one that organises all family gatherings and celebrations. One of the reasons why is because we always meet at her flat. The flat has not gone through any big transformations for at least 20 years and always feels like home. The main detail in my visual piece and in my life is my grandma's sofa. All family gatherings now seem like rituals we all perform without knowing. Sitting on the sofa while talking and drinking tea is something you cannot refuse. I started realising how I wanted to be like my grandma: powerful, loving, and sweet but also strong, respected, and independent. Taking a second look, I also notice how the sofa looks like it is made from Lithuanian traditional bands Tumenas analysed in my dissertation.
I added dark wood furniture as is it the most used type of furniture in interiors. The table and cabinet have crochet doilies which bring some traditional feel to the piece. I added glassware that brings in a Soviet atmosphere as everyone has the same ones. I also put books in the cabinet to show that the place is always evolving and the person in the space is always learning.
I did not want to just copy my grandmas flat and tried to reimagine it as more modern and brought a more abstract contemporary artwork above the sofa. This also brings a bit of disruption to my grandma's house and makes it more of my piece.
The carpet is bright red to symbolise the presence of the Soviet Union as I understood that I should not be bitter because of Soviet repression but use it as another layer of me and a source of power. I added a pigeon and a plant to show the importance of nature in my culture and me. At last, I decided to paint a character in my painting so everyone can draw a connection to the piece and see themselves in it. The person laying on the couch is colourless and seem like a ghost as I am far away from home and can only partly insert myself into my family life now. It also shows how transparent or empty a person might look without the influence of textiles and culture.
Acrylic painting 50cmx60cm
I decided to try and see what connects me and my family and relatives. While doing this I realised that the piece connecting us all was my grandma. Grandma in my family takes the leader role, she is the one that organises all family gatherings and celebrations. One of the reasons why is because we always meet at her flat. The flat has not gone through any big transformations for at least 20 years and always feels like home. The main detail in my visual piece and in my life is my grandma's sofa. All family gatherings now seem like rituals we all perform without knowing. Sitting on the sofa while talking and drinking tea is something you cannot refuse. I started realising how I wanted to be like my grandma: powerful, loving, and sweet but also strong, respected, and independent. Taking a second look, I also notice how the sofa looks like it is made from Lithuanian traditional bands Tumenas analysed in my dissertation.
I added dark wood furniture as is it the most used type of furniture in interiors. The table and cabinet have crochet doilies which bring some traditional feel to the piece. I added glassware that brings in a Soviet atmosphere as everyone has the same ones. I also put books in the cabinet to show that the place is always evolving and the person in the space is always learning.
I did not want to just copy my grandmas flat and tried to reimagine it as more modern and brought a more abstract contemporary artwork above the sofa. This also brings a bit of disruption to my grandma's house and makes it more of my piece.
The carpet is bright red to symbolise the presence of the Soviet Union as I understood that I should not be bitter because of Soviet repression but use it as another layer of me and a source of power. I added a pigeon and a plant to show the importance of nature in my culture and me. At last, I decided to paint a character in my painting so everyone can draw a connection to the piece and see themselves in it. The person laying on the couch is colourless and seem like a ghost as I am far away from home and can only partly insert myself into my family life now. It also shows how transparent or empty a person might look without the influence of textiles and culture.
Acrylic painting 50cmx60cm
'Abstract'
collection
Creative meditation
'Bijote' lake
'Dried flowers'
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